Bad Mommy!

I was walking out from my mom's room after making small chats with her for about 25 minutes tonite when I heard Azra's loud cry. I called out Azra's name and ran to our room only to find her crying out loud ( air mata berjujuran sampai basah cadar) with her body lying on her tummy and face facing down on the mattress and already a bit to the edge of the bed! Masyaallah, She was crying I guess because dia tak boleh aznak telentangkan badan dia macam asal. I guess after I left her, she sort of cuba untuk meniarap. The thing is, when I put her to sleep before i walked to my mom's room, i was sure she had fallen asleep and as i thot of co-sleeping with her until her Bak is back from his weekly usrah, (which normally will be as late as 1 or 2 am) Idecided to put her on our bed. Ohhhhh i feel like giving a good big knock on my head (which I did anyway by slapping my own peha) while trying to console Azra. It took me a few minutes to pacify her. I cuddled her and zikir the usual asma' to her, and repeatedly said i was sorry for not hearing her cry much earlier. she slowly stopped crying and gave me that look yang, yang... Ya Allah , buat rasa bersalah dan menyesal sangat. She finally fell asleep less than 10minutes aftet that. Haihhhh.....Kalau Bak tau bila balik nanti mesti he maraaah maarahh mommy. Kesian Azra, tak taulah dah berapa lama she cried before I finally realized :-(